diriku.. hatiku.. hidupku.. ALHAMDULILLAH syukur** part 2

27 may 2008(the beggining from a second mistake)

after he avoiding me for a month... finally he send me a messaged.. messaged that i really dont want to read... e pick up the phone sometimes... but it so cold cold as ice...
the message.....
"sampai cni je..... mungkin tade jodoh....minta maaf bnyk2... blaja elok2... " dup! my heart stop.. i cant breath... empty... ...ahahhhaha...... mase ni jela...
lost control....
jadi ta reti bahase.....
keep "pujuk"ing him.....

at last....

beginning of the something...
i found my true love...
my really true love..
always by my side....
kepada DIA lah aku mencari... mengadu...
semakin dekat... but at 27th dec.... doaku trjawab ... kekasih hati aku jwb.. tpi aku yg salah tafsir... masih terbuat clap... dat men come back to me... "nak sambung tak??" coz i still love him.. accept him... (the beggining is hold... until...)

jan2008
b4 dat... on october 2008.... skali lagi kate2 ni diucapkan...
"kita sampai cni jelah ek.. drpda sye sakitkan hati awk..."
diz time i agree... okay.. tapi sebulan pastu smbung balik... hahhha funny2.......... n also from him

jan 2009...
kite kwn jela... okay agree....
kwn2.... kwn... cam biase...
ta kisah... bla.... bla......
kdng2 cam kapel......
talk about future...
giv me false hope.... tape die manusia biase

october 2009
last message and the beggining from the beggining.... hahhha
"kite kwn sampai cni je... tade jodoh... tut! tut!.. taley sebot.. ayat pedih... hahhaha....
im totally shocked,marah.. apehal??? kawn pon na putus.. wut am i to u... marah..
marah.....
sedih....
alone......
termenung.....
berpk.......
pk.........
cari........
renung..........

i came back and see my love one.. yg ta penah jemu2 memafkan aku... ta jemu2 menyanyngi aku... ta jemu2 mmbuat aku sedar.... ta jemu2 mnyedarkan aku... ta jemu2 memanggilku pulng ke pngkal jalan.....
ta jemu2 mmberi n menunjuk aku yg ape yg aku lalui sebelom ini salah...
mnyedarkan aku yg 2007-2009 hnye sementara...... nikmat sementara... yg membuat aku makin dekat n mkin dekat n ingin sentiasa dekat..... terus cari n terus memahami ape yg sepatutnya aku fahami..... memahami yg ALLAH syngkan aku.... memahami yg setiap yg berlaku ad hikmah... HIKMAH mndektkn aku pd asalku... memahami yg ALLAH sentiasa ade... saat dunia tiada... memahami yg ALLAH sentiasa mnyangi saat ad yg benci...
syukur..... ALHAMDULILLAH.....



conclusion:
setiap yg berlaku ad hikmah.. hikmah yg mungkin akn mmbuat kita berfikir.... dan akhirnye .. bertemu sesuatu yg trase ilang.... ketenngn... kesengn akn dtng selepas susah... bhgie akn dtng selepas derita...


"ALLAH MY LOVE ONE ALWAYS N ALWAYS..."

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~SALAM KASIH,TINTA SAYANG~

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